Hey blog, I missed you so much....

Not enough love is spread on this page. Instead, I've done too much to be trendy and show off what I like instead of what I think. My faith in myself and in love is reaffirmed by looking at one of the leaders for my community group. A man that spent 26 years in prison for a crime (I don't ask people when I meet them why they went to prison. I don't care to know because it won't change my opinion of them and reliving all of that is painful. People will tell you when the time is right and if they trust you, but asking isn't my purpose).A man who leaned on his family to survive the years and who used those years to gain an education and is now exceptional. A man I believe in.

If you know me, then you know that I don't believe in people anymore. This is not to say that I don't love people or have faith. I no longer believe in people: I have become very cynical of humanity and of our goals for it. But my friend has changed that for me. I now want to learn more and take things away.

How do you love again as he has? How do you go about to inspire others and live free away from bondage? The confidence that I have isn't what I see in him and what I hope to rebuild and add onto from what I see in him.

I believe that a person is real.

And what I've thought about and thought long and hard on is that we are exceptional and blessed. Our struggles pale in comparison to those of others we are unaware of. Our dreams are unmatched so long as we place faith into them.

Organizing has been rough on me because it has challenged me to challenge others to be the best they can be and demand power. How can I push someone to be the best if I myself cannot be the best I can be? I've had a good number of successes and a few defeats that have shaken my bones. But like a good friend Stephanie Moore once told me, our actions are important in service work because of the real lives we touch and the real consequences those people may face if we do not accomplish something.

I believe that I can be a GREAT organizer. Things matter and the challenges that I face only make me stronger for the forthcoming battles (cliche but soooo true).

I believe that I can make leaders of the homeless and provide resources to get those I meet off the streets and into homes and regain the lives they desire.

And slowly but surely, I believe in love.