You can't always get what you want...

 But you get what you need.

From like sometime in 2005 till sometime in 2010, I had the biggest crush on one of my friends (who'll remain anonymous). I knew it probably wouldn't ever manifest into anything, but I still held that precious little crush.

This was not a good thing.

I am not a man who likes crushes and hates not being able to speak my mind. I hate that pining feeling that you have when you have a crush. I hate the lameness of the doughfaced look that you have when you're around that person. I hate the feeling of knowing that you won't date said person and you're with someone else as a space filler. Or if everyone somehow how you feel and you think know one does.

I also dated other people as an excuse to not approach said person. That wasn't a good idea either, but what else could you really do if you couldn't get what you want?

My friend knew I had crush but were ever so polite to keep our relationship strictly platonic. But the friend box is not a place you want to be. And when you do find someone that makes you feel as happy as that friend (or very, very close) what the fuck does that mean? I'm not ready to start thinking about "the one" and shit like that. In "The Dark Knight", Heath Ledger's character The Joker made a quote about being "a mad dog who chases cars" and wouldn't know what to do with one if he ever got it. Excluding the mad dog part, sometimes I feel that way about relationships and that mythical "the one". What the fuck am I supposed to do now?

Is this that getting what you need thing Mick Jagger was talking about?